Pendejo

It’s not like it’s never happened before, but I still had hope that we would last. I yearned for hugs and kisses, for affection that I had long been missing. I didn’t know how to react because I hoped for a a resolution. Stupid me for thinking I could find love so easily.  If it’s not there, then it’s just not there. I will not knock on anyones door anymore, I will drink to drown this loneliness. I remain silent, and without an ability to speak out words.  It’s noticeable when people start talking about me. They question if I speak, if perhaps I’ve gone mute. I’m no longer stimulated by people, I’ve completey shut down, one of these days when my heart rekindles I will find another you, and forget the wonderful memories I have from you.

~ by peterrodriguez on June 9, 2009.